Sweetie Nadia’s Real Secrets

YOu know, sometimes presents are worth more then money. I receieved a lil box about 4 days or so ago and thought it was hair products that I ordered and yesterday I opened the box to THREE CLASSIC CDS!!  They were on my wishlist but they were the most wanted CDS on the list.  I have no idea how this nice person knew.  I think I noted it high but I noted alot of Cds HIGH.  I received “The Warrior,” a CD by “Howie Day” with the classic song, “Collide,”  and greatest hits by, “Bog Seger.” 
So, stranger, MANY MANY thanks and know that I have delved into the Howie Day and it’s already given me two hours of nice fucking music.

Last night I saw the Nanny Diaries n and he was so understanding when I started to tear up.  We were pretty much the only ones in the theatre and of course in the beginning of the movie all we did was tickle eachother and laugh but the movie was pretty intense in the middle.  
Laura Linney always superior of an actress reminded me so much of my mother and numerous Jewish married women who would rather get their ass bleached then get a divorce no matter how bad their men treat them.   Her hair up nearly pulling at her husbands legs it was hard to hold my tears back but I certainly did not feel alone, I mean how many kids see that in their world?  A great date movie.   Take your guy and see how he treats you when you’re emotional.  
We spend time at book stores, one time we played basketball for fifteen minutes trying to get a coffee cup into a garbage can in the middle of a busy street, played regular basketball and just laugh like crazy sometimes. The REAL EMOTIONAL PART IS WHEN he three-prongs.  For those who are just tuning in this means licking pussy, fingering pussy and ass for LONG PERIODS OF TIME before fucking me like mad.  He’s a big hugger, very affectionate Cancer and Cancers and Scorpios (me), forget about it if you know what I mean. 

He’s already stood me up once so I know it could happen again, although I’m desensitized to it I was very hurt for a week.  I made him wait 3 weeks ignoring his calls b4 seeing him again.  
Last night -very intense.  The date b4 he just delved right in, REAL QUICK, NO THREE PRONG. I took it personally lol.  I’m like, “do I offend?”  I tasted like a soda pop-as far as I can tell.  So when he three pronged and didn’t come up for air for nearly 20 minutes I was like in-love.  Maybe even longer.  I remember the song, “Collide” playing which was the third song on that CD my lovely stranger bought when he was half done so it must have been even more then 1/2 hour.  Sucking and licking my well manicured cumming pussy. His mouth must have looked like a sink full of conditioner.  It was such a turn on to hear him moan more then I was.  Finally he belted it to me for another 1/2 hour.  He’s not like the best lover I had.  The best was someone  I met thru match.  This guy made real love, One love that I would have loved to watch on tape over and over again, it was what movies are made up of. We kissed, were like two waves together in rhythm completely on top of eachother me feeling his weight, holding his body close to mine, making me cum with his mouth within five minutes and we did it for at least two hours.  Nick pounds me with his very large cock and I feel it in my ass while the guy from match I felt it in my clit and pussy but I really enjoy it when N fucks me doggy style which I usually dont’ like with other lovers.

After fucking I was dead tired but hungry as a fuck so after I dropped his sweaty ass home,  I nearly got killed. Tiredness and knowing it’s a dead-end relationship, I ended up doing something I NEVER DO.  I crossed the street against the light, really aimlessly sauntered across the most deadliest sreet in Queens just fucking short of getting killed.  This is the third time this happened in my life now that I think about it.   In this detached state I kept saying to myself,  “WHAT AM I DOING WITH HIM?” What am I doing with my life being with him, ” this has to be a phase etc.”   I don’t remember if I ran or what my reaction was but I only have one second image of the closeness that cab came to making me one bloody dead mess.  The second time was when I was wearing only one contact lense walking with Ray and the car got so close it swerved and Ray had to knock me on the floor backwords.  He cried when he got home.  I couldn’t see much, just the unfocused swerving.
 
As if I don’t know which I pretty much do.  I’m just glad that I am looking in the mirror and recognizing an unhealthy dead-end relationship but that’s what life as a young person is all about; fucking different people, and eventually knowing what’s right accept it’s like being addicted to a fucking peanut when you have a huge allergy to it.

I SERIOUSLY NEED A BREAK from him.  I liked taking that three-week break knowing his craved my ass.  I’m not being cruel, there’s just some things about him that I need to keep distant from.

 I’ve been waking up to plenty of paymails and tributes and the phones are kind of slow so I’m planning up some changes on my site and managing other girls as well. 

I’ve learned how to practice my guitar after 11pm, just play fucking real low. NOthing really to write about as far as the phones cause they’re not deep enough of calls so I’m not going to make up anything.